Sorry for being so silent of late. Looking around on Facebook and other social media sites, seems like I’m not the only one. I don’t know if it’s gearing up for the convention season or what, but a lot of people seem to be falling behind on their updates. Of course, I’ve fallen a little more than behind.
What’s going on?
Eh, why dance around it? I don’t know what to do.
I published my first book in 2001, and my first serial in 2002. Since then, I’ve had a real clear idea of where I wanted to, professionally and artistically. The path I might take was unclear, but I knew where I wanted to end up.
Here I am, almost a decade and a half later and I really don’t know. Since coming back from a year’s hiatus in 2010, I’ve been stumbling. The writing profession and field just isn’t what it used to be. That’s not inherently a bad thing but it’s made navigating the professional world of literature and writing a major conundrum. Likewise, the internet and living off the internet is equally bizarre. When I first wrote my serials in 2002, they were inspired by web comics, and I was emulating the web comic model. Now, web comics have fallen from grace as the pre-eminent artistic voice that they once were and their business model has proven to be more than a little dubious for most. But you add into it funding avenues like Patreon and crowd-sourcing like Kickstarter and every business model has been turned on its ear.
And, again, that’s not inherently a bad thing. This isn’t an old man shaking his cane at all them there new-fangled business options. But it’s so dizzying, it’s truly hard to know where to begin.
And there’s the possible reality of not bothering with the printed form. A decade ago, it would have seemed heresy for me to suggest leaving behind the printed word for another medium. I’ve written scripts (both film and comic) but the written word was my first and primary love. Now? Video games have achieved a level of story-telling complexity that is almost unimaginable. Television has embraced a level of sophistication in its narrative that even naysayers acknowledge this is a new golden age of TV. Comic books have more respect than ever, allowing their storytellers to explore narratives previously unimaginable.
I just don’t know.
I don’t know what medium or mediums I want to pursue. I don’t know what formats I want my stories to be told through. This experiment at relaunching my serials has failed. I really thought this novella approach would work, but I really don’t like the longer format and it seems most of you, my readers, don’t care for it either. I don’t know if I want to go back to shorter daily episodes, and I don’t know if I can. I am signed to Haven Publishing House but I have other print avenues to pursue as well.
I don’t know. The only thing I do know is that I want to write, I need to write, I have to write. But I’m struggling to find a format, an outlet, that will allow me to share my stories in a way that is sustainable for me, and digestible for my readers.
So yeah. I’m sorry for the delays. It’s unfair of me to ask but I don’t know when new content will start to appear. I hope soon. My next convention is Anime Mid-Atlantic, June 19-21. I’m hoping to have some news by then, some announcements.
I can’t thank you guys for sticking with me through this. I’m sorry for the delay. But I think what comes out the other side of this trial will be worth it.