I both love and hate philosophy. I enjoy discussing different philosophical thinkings and views of the world. Sadly, I don’t really enjoy reading philosophy because most philosophers are excessively long-winded that blather on incessantly. Were I a strong advocate for their specific views, the attention to minutae might be appealing but as a tourist to that realm of thinking, it gets cumbersome.
One philosopher that I’ve been rereading recently, however, is ‘Meister’ Eckhart Hockheim. These days, he’s probably most famous for being referenced at the end of Jacob’s Ladder. In it, the character Louis Denardo tells the titular Jacob,
“Eckhart saw Hell too. He said, ‘the only thing that burns in Hell is the part of you that won’t let go of life, your memories, your attachments. They burn them all away. But they’re not punishing you,’ he said. They’re freeing your soul. So, if you’re frightened of dying and…and you’re holding on, you’ll see devils tearing your life away. But if you’ve made your peace, then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the earth”
This singular quote has seemed a bit apropo (if more than a little melodramatic) with the recent tragedies that have befallen me and my family. For example, I lost my computer and all (and I do mean ALL) my files. That’s years – decades – of writing gone. Gone and likely unrecoverable.
On the one hand, true tragedy. My life’s work, up in smoke. But on the other hand, all of it was and still is in my brain. All the stories still exist. Vincent Pierce, Everett Kendall, and so many other characters, still live inside my mind. And getting them out is as simple as daily visits to the library until I am able to buy a new computer. Or even just jotting stuff down on a notepad.
A lot has been lost, sure. Tiny nuances of characters and settings and events that could only be born out of a certain time and place in my life. But the essence of who they are and what they do hasn’t been lost. And while I lament what has been lost, I also have the opportunity to rebuild from the ground up. I can start fresh, of sorts.
So that’s something. 🙂
Speaking of nice, I will be at Anime Mid-Atlantic this weekend, hosting a bunch of panels as well as helping to man some panels for my publisher, Haven Publishing. And also promoting the print release of my newest novel, Rhest for the Wicked. I hope to see you there!